Today I have decided to start a preconception journal. I have been hoping for a child for two and a half years now. For the first couple of years I didn't worry too much about it. I figured it would happen soon and that my husband and I wouldn't even have to think about it. During the summer I did some reading and started to chart my cycles. I went to my gynecologist in late August. He wasn't too worried. He did some tests to check my thyroid and to check for fibroids. Everything came out fine. He said to try and time things right and to come back in six or twelve months if I wasn't pregnant. Now six months have passed. I have one more chance at pregnancy before my doctor's appointment on March 26.

I've had some ups and downs during the past six months. I have a supportive husband though and friends that understand and even several that have experienced infertility. God has always been there for me. However it is very difficult for me to trust in God and know that things will all happen in His timing. I get so impatient. I dream of the days when I can quit teaching other people's children and start raising children of my own. I see my two year old nephew and think, "I could have a 21 month old by now." But I must not feel sorry for myself. God has a reason for my trials. He will bless me and strengthen my faith through all this.