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A Hard Time at Church and Happiness Monday, Jun. 16, 2003 @ 1:52 p.m.
On Sunday afternoons I always talk to my parents on the phone. I figured it was about time to tell my mom about our appointment with the fertility specialist. It was difficult for me to tell her about it because I got all choked up and couldn't talk. I finally was able to tell her through my tears, and she was very understanding.
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She said that she would be praying for us, and that she hadn't asked me about it because she figured nothing was happening. I told her how it didn't help any that I had found out my sister-in-law is pregnant again. My mom said that it was very difficult for a cousin of mine. After she had one child she was never able to have any more. It was hard for her to watch her sister-in-law next door have five kids without difficulty. After I talked to my mom I tried to recover and prepare for church and for my husband's family who were coming over after church. I found out that my husband had done some reading from one of the infertility books I had bought. During church that evening I had a hard time during the singing. It seemed like all the songs had to do with trials and it made my eyes fill with tears as I thought of mine. I did have an easier time listening to the sermon. The minister spoke about visiting and caring for the elderly, sick, hospitalized, ect. It reminded me that I really should put others before myself. When the sermon was over I went to talk with my mother-in-law. Soon more of my husband's female relatives had joined the circle. It ended up that there were three pregnant women (2 cousins, 1 sister-in-law) and two of my husband's aunts. They were congratulating eachother and talking about foods they could or couldn't eat when they were pregnant. I really felt uncomfortable, but there wasn't anywhere else I could go. I just smiled and laughed along. The Father's Day celebration at my house went well. Thankfully the conversation didn't center on my sister-in-law having a baby. I went to bed last night feeling happy, and my husband was much more awake and followed nurse's orders. Unfortunately I think I ovulated on Saturday, so I have little hope of getting pregnant this month. Today I have been able to keep my mind away from those feelings of self-pity, and I thank God for a great group of kids in my VBS class today. then< >now Recent Entries Adoption Complete! Thinking About Another - Thursday, Nov. 05, 2009
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