Something strange happened today. At noon today I found some blood-tinged cervical mucus. I thought it was a little strange, but didn't think much of it. This afternoon after I got home I had more of it. It was stretchy and streaked with pinkish-red blood. I've never bled around ovulation time. Never! What does it mean? Should I be worried?

This paragraph may be a little too descriptive, but I like to keep a record of this in case it becomes something to be concerned about. I'm not in pain, and I wasn't in pain last night when we were TTC. When I got up this morning I only saw one small blob of fertile mucus, and it appeared normal. My temps were still low this morning, so I probably haven't ovulated. I know cervical mucus can be pinkish around ovulation, but I'd say this is closer to reddish. It is a clear red with some cloudiness. It seems that the blood is coming from my cervix, because it is mixed and streaked in the mucus.

This is strange, really strange. Just when I think I know my body and its workings, it throws me a surprise.

Today after school I had a nice talk with my principal/friend. She's trying to figure out what she needs to do to get referred to a fertility specialist. All her tests (including her HSG) and her husband's tests have turned out normal. The doctor had told her that if the HSG turned out normal that the next step would be a referral. The problem is that she has only talked to the nurse about the HSG, so she hasn't heard anything from the doctor. I hope she can get it figured out soon.

My principal/friend gave me some details about the family that goes to my school that have three adoptive children. (The oldest will be in my 4th grade class next year.) This family adopted their children through the same adoption agency that we plan to use if we decide to adopt. I found out that they adopted their two older children as infants, and weren't sure if they would adopt any more. They later were asked by the agency if they were interested in a two-year-old girl. They decided to adopt her and said they didn't mind missing the infant stage since they had experienced it with their two older children. Even now, with their youngest starting kindergarten next year, they aren't sure their family is complete. They are leaving that in God's hands, but are not actively pursuing another child.

Hearing about this family gave me hope that my husband and I may be able to adopt infants that are the same race as we are. I would love it if we could adopt children that look like us as this family did. Their children look (and act!) so much like them that you would think they are biological children! Also, their children are approximately two years apart. That means that it is possible through this agency to adopt children relatively quickly without having to wait for years and years. Domestic adoption is sounding like more of a realistic option.

I've been thinking and reading about adoption a lot lately, but I haven't brought it up with my husband. Even though we haven't made any plans about what we will do after treatments this summer, I feel that it would be wise for me to educate myself through reading and gathering information. That way when or if the time comes to discuss such plans, I will be able to explain things to my husband and help speed along the process about deciding what to do.

If I get my period this month, it won't be too depressing because that means I'll be able to get started on the planning of our injectable cycles. I don't have much hope of them working right now. Maybe that will change once I start taking shots and visiting the doctor. It's hard to have hope when everything you have tried has resulted in failure.