I used to never have dreams about getting my period. The last two months I have had dreams where I discovered that I had started spotting. I had one like that last night. How wierd!

Today is when I normally expect to start spotting, but it looks like it won't start today. I didn't really expect it today since my temperature was pretty high. You see, I looked at all my charts for the past year, and the only time I spotted when my temperature was over 98.3 was when I was sick with a fever. This morning my temp was 98.5. That's high enough to assume I won't be spotting.

If I'm not pregnant I expect my temp to go down slightly tomorrow. If it goes up or stays the same, I think I will go crazy from not knowing what's happening.

Whenever I have these nonpredictable cycles, it make me think that maybe, maybe, maybe something is different that time. I don't want to think that way; I don't want to assume I'm pregnant when I'm not.

I'm trying very hard not to think about it much. It's not working (of course!). Whenever I start thinking too much I start praying. This yearning for a baby is so hard to handle when I get to this part of my cycle. It's only been ten days since I ovulated, but it seems like ages ago.