After doing some research, we decided that it would be best not to show our profile for the August 5 baby. There was too much risk for the baby to be impacted by the way the mother treated her body. At this time we don't feel like a child with special needs is right for our family. We didn't want to say yes and hope for the best. We want to be happy with our choice and happy with the worst case scenario. With any pregnancy there is a chance of complications. But I would never have a biological child suffering from the effects of alcohol and drug use since I don't abuse my body in that way.

When I told our case worker this, she assured me that there will be more opportunities to show our profile as they are working with other women with babies due in August and September. It gave me hope that our wait may not be much longer.

Today we got another call from our social worker about a new potential birthmother working with an office in a nearby branch. Her baby is due July 27, and she is interested in an open adoption and wants a family who already has a child. She'd like to choose a family soon (probably next week), and she has already been looking at our agency's online profiles. Her case worker says that she and her family would be great to have in an open relationship. This is a relief. Most of the women wanting ongoing visits recently have been those with a questionable past. Some had their parental rights terminated for previous children, while others have children in foster care who they are attempting to "get back."

Things are starting to get exciting now.

June 8 marked a year since my daughter's adoption was finalized. Where did that year go? My baby is almost two years old!