Sometimes I wonder why I even continue to temp each morning. Today it has left be feeling a bit down. It appears as though I ovulated yesterday instead of Friday when I had the IUI. I'm seeing my hope of a precnancy this month go down the drain...

I did look at the Chart Gallery at Fertility Friend. It seems like it isn't too uncommon for the temperature shift to occur the third morning after the shot to trigger ovulation. Some doctors do two IUIs in two days. My doctor has always done one, and has never mentioned doing two, not in his literature and not in speaking to me. I'm sure that he would do two if he thought it would be worthwhile. I don't think I'll be pushing it, because it doesn't seem very cost effective to me.

From looking at the Chart Gallery I also saw that several people got pregnant who ovulated the day after the IUI. It is possible then that it may work.

Still, I'm feeling like everything I went through this month was useless. Why am I going through with all of this. Sometimes I just want to quit treatment and adopt. I want a child so badly. I don't want to be patient. I want a child to love.

The only thing that's good about temping this month is that I can know when to expect my period. I also know that I won't get over-excited about being pregnant last time. This time I won't tell my husband what's going on until it is two weeks from tomorrow and I haven't seen any signs of my period. I don't want to see his hopes dashed after I have gotten him so excited.

Today at church I sat close by my husband. The great benefit of pews is that you can sit really close. I'm talking thigh to thigh, shoulder to shoulder. It's a great feeling. I put my arm through his while we read the Bible together. I was feeling very much in love with him and appreciating the fact that we didn't have any kids to sit between us. Church was all about us and God. There weren't any kids to distract us. Someday when we do have kids, when we are feeding candy to a restless child or carrying a crying one to the nursery, I may miss those times we sat so close on the pew.