I'm shaking, and my stomach's in knots! I'm thrilled and scared all at the same time. It's because I just took the first home pregnancy I have ever taken, and immediately a dark line showed up. It's very clear now that I am pregnant.

After four years of trying to get to be pregnant plus four years of giving up and looking to adoption instead, it has happened. I never thought that I'd see the day.

My spotting stopped again, and my temperatures remained high, so yesterday evening I told my husband what was happening. I said that I was going to buy a pregnancy test, so I could at least rule that out. I took the test this morning, and the results were very clear.

We've decided not to tell anyone, including our adoption case worker for a while. We want to wait until a doctor tells us that it all looks okay.

After taking a closer look at my chart, I've decided that I must have had my period around May 23-25. That gives enough time for me to ovulate before I started spotting. My due date would be Feb 27-March 1.

I'm very excited about being pregnant, but I'm also very scared about miscarriage. The spotting has been very minimal, but it still scares me. I did some reading up on it and found that women can have implantation spotting as well as spotting during the time when the next period is due. I'm hoping that is the case for me, and that it isn't a sign that the pregnancy is in trouble. I felt no pain or cramping during it all, so that's good.

I took a little on-line pregnancy test last night and could answer yest to just two questions. Is your period late, and Are you very tired? I have been attributing the tiredness to a week of Vacation Bible School, but maybe it's pregnancy related. I guess I'll find out in the coming week, because I have nothing happening then.

I'm not sure what I'm going to do now. All I know is that I'm going to call the doctor on Monday to see what the next step is.